nor stands in the path of sinners, nor sits in the seat of the scornful; but his delight is in the law of the Lord and in His law he meditates day and night. He shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water that bring forth its fruit in its season, whose leaf does not wither;
and whatever he does shall prosper.
Not all counselors are that way I have now discovered. Honestly you can go and find a person who will tell you want you want to hear. It won't change anything. It makes you feel good for a little while. But nothing changes. Feelings lie. Now If you talk to the Counselor and read His word then bingo, life can change. Mine did. I experienced such healing and growth it is hard to put it in words. I just know that I know. What proof is there other that I am just simply not the same person I was? I entered into a season of discovery in my faith. Who really was this Jesus? I wanted to know Him and make Him known. My prayers shifted.I had found my peace in the midst of a hard season.
Fast forward five years...blink . . .and my baby is now finishing kindergarten. We also were able to purchase the original farmhouse and acreage that completed our property. Signed the papers as a sweet present from the Lord on Valentine's Day. It was finally looking like my life was taking a turn. I was humbled to see God answering my prayers for a better home for my family. Bitterness and resentment were in my past and I was glad to have faced them. The soil of my heart had been worked over and new fruit was forming.
Everything changed on May 13, 2011. I was diagnosed with cancer. Here I was 34 years old with colon cancer. It wasn't until The first week of June when I found out it was stage 3B and I would need to have chemotherapy. I had a calm resolve. I didn't panic. Yes I cried. A lot. Buckets to be more specific. I knew who my God was and is. I knew where my safe place was. I went there and stayed for as long as I could in those long days of endless hurry up and wait for another test result. The answers just didn't seem to come quick enough. They always seemed to lead to more tests and more questions.
This post in in response to a challenge by Kara Tippetts who is a breast cancer survivor battling for her life. She blogs about her journey and sweet family at mundanefaithfulness. Recently Kara wrote a book called the hardest peace: expecting grace in the midst of life's hard.I highly recommend her blog and her book. Blessing fellow cancer survivors!