|My basket of cards!|
|Dustin at the Tide Pool at Sea World|
There have been some long days and nights over the past year. Many trips to the new hospital (great timing on that too!). I have had countless doctor appointments, many lab draws for blood work and one trip to the ER. God has proven once again His faithfulness. We have remained hopeful. I have completed 10 rounds of chemotherapy. I have pushed through the nausea, aches, pains and long list of side-effects of the too many to name drugs I am taking. Most of all we are a family. Together we have overcome the obstacles in our path. The Lord has fought for us. He has made a way. His power in us carried us through. He is able to do exceedingly more. His goodness overwhelms me. We are a testimony to His faithfulness. Many would be ruined financially by this ordeal. Our health insurance is good. Our God is gracious. He has shown compassion. Our farm has done well this year. We have reaped a bountiful harvest and are blessed. We are grateful, humble and stand in awe.
My longing for heaven increases daily. When I ponder my earthly trials and so called "suffering" I know that nothing will compare to the glory that awaits me - face to face with my Savior. It will be worth all the pain and drama of the last year of our lives.This road is worthy, because Jesus paid the ultimate price. I am strong only because He lives in me. My joy rests upon relationship with Him. His Word is alive, it consumes me day and night. Thankfulness. Deep eucharisteo has been birthed out of this season. New levels of spiritual discovery and intamacy with the almighty. You could say I have tapped into my own
"glory hole." The gold I have found can not be bought. It is worth the journey I have taken to find it. The time spent seeking His comfort, mercy and strength is worth the struggle. I have traded my sorrows, my ashes for beauty. Only God can create (bara) something out of nothing. He isn't finished. 2012 is a few days a way. I continue to wait upon Him. I don't know what 2012 holds, but I know that it will be good!